everything from your mind, to empty the mind. To whom does the ego come? And you smile to yourself. You keep still.
You will soon realize that everything comes to you. It comes to you. I think these things. I believe this and I believe that. I feel hurt. I feel this way, I feel that way. A new revelation comes to you. “I.” You begin to see that the I-thought is the culprit. From the moment you get out of bed in the morning, you begin with the I, and it never ends till you fall asleep. Therefore the only peace you ever get is when you are in deep sleep. When you are in deep sleep, the I returns to the Heart, to the Source. There is nothing going on. Nothing happening. At that time you are unconsciously Self-realized.
This is why when you get up in the morning and you say to yourself, “I slept well,” you’re talking about the I. I slept well. What you really mean to say is, the I wasn’t interfering with your life. But as soon as you begin to think, you say, “I am late for work. I have to catch the bus. I have a headache. I have to eat breakfast.” And you go on and on with this I, and it never stops. All day long it’s I, I, I, I. Think about this. Am I not telling you the truth? You’re always thinking about, “I this,” and “I that.” Till the night time comes again, you go to sleep. And again the I goes back into the Source, into the Heart, and you’re at peace once more. Until you wake up and it starts all over again. After doing this for a million years, you get to the stage when you’ll ask yourself, “Who am I? What is this I? How did it arise? From whence does it come?” And this is the beginning of wisdom, when you inquire for the Source of the I. You ultimately begin to trace the I to the Source. When you
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do this finally, when the I is in the Source, it is just like when you’re in deep sleep, except that you’re conscious. Think about this for a moment.
In deep sleep you have no I, for it has returned to the Source. You’re totally happy, but you’re unconscious of it. When you attain what we call Self-realization, it means the I has returned to the Source while you’re awake. There’s nobody left to think. There’s no one left to worry, or to fret, or to be unhappy. You have merged with the Infinite, with the All- Pervading Brahman. If you understand this, and you practice this, you will become the happiest person in the world. For on the way to finding the I-Source you begin to feel happier and happier every day. The old thoughts melt away. The old you dissolves. You become free.
Whatever you identify with, that’s what you become. Therefore, stop identifying with worldly things. Identify with yourself. Now, how do you do this? It begins in the morning, as | told you before. That’s the time when your mind has been free. Because you slept, you’ve had a semblance of peace. Being in deep sleep is an unconscious method of Self-realization. You’re realized when you are asleep, but you are unconscious. So you’re not aware of it. You want to be consciously asleep. When you’re consciously asleep, you’re awake. You’re awake to your Self, to Reality to what Is, to l Am.
When you get up in the morning, immediately before the thoughts come, identify with the Self. Now how do you do this? Simply say to yourself, “I. .1.” That’s all you have to do. “I… 1.” You’re doing this before your thoughts come. Maybe in the beginning you can only do this for a couple of seconds, but that’s good. Even those couple of seconds will make your day fulfilled, and you’ll feel happy during the day. As time passes,
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